I've been shot 病んでんのか 笑

今朝はまた変な夢を見た。もうずっと悪夢ばかりだ。。。今回は地元でrunnyがチャリンコで走ってると色んな知り合いや架空の知り合いにまで出会った。彼らと分かれた後、チャリンコでそのまま家へ向かっていると、突然背後からチャリンコギャング集団がやって来た。彼らは目の前に立ち塞がり、いきなりマシンガンを撃ち放ってきた。胸を撃たれた瞬間にその銃がBB弾を使った偽物銃というのもすぐにわかった。がしかし・・・ここからが意味不明だ。なぜかrunnyはBB弾だったことに不本意さすら感じていた。その事実に腹立たしくなり、撃った相手をわしづかみにして今度は何だ。。。ボクシングごっこかよ。。。相手のパンチは一つもヒットしない。でもrunnyも一度も手を出さなかった。とここでまた変な夢を見ているというのに気付いた。すぐに目が覚めて、洗面所へ行き顔を洗いながら独り言、「なんなんだよ・・・」。夢って本当に不思議だ。

そんな今日はホームステイ先で料理を担当する。キッズ達の元気な笑顔を見るとなんだかホッとする。あれ？病んでんのか、俺 笑

I had strange dream this morning again. I've been having nightmare recently. In this dream, I met my friends and also non-existent friends(never knew in real) while I was biking in my hometown. After I left them, I was heading to my home and bike-gang (people dress like gang riding bike) passed me. They just blocked my way and suddenly this guy started shooting me with a machine gun. As soon as I was shot in my chest, I realized the gun was fake because it was BB bullet. BUT this is where the non-make-any-sense part begins. Because I felt that it was even against my will. I don't know why but I was disappointed and I kinda pissed off that it wasn't a real gun. So I grabbed him and now what?...boxing time begins....This guy couldn't get any punch on me. But I never throw any punch, either. This is when I realized that I was having a strange dream again. Then I woke up and washed my face in the bathroom and talked to thin air '' what the hell ''... Yeah dream is always strange, isn't it?

So today I will be a chef at my host family. I feel relieved when I see their kids' smile. hur? Am I really ok LOL