I've been shot 病んでんのか 笑

今朝はまた変な夢を見た。もうずっと悪夢ばかりだ。。。今回は地元でrunnyがチャリンコで走ってると色んな知り合いや架空の知り合いにまで出会った。彼らと分かれた後、チャリンコでそのまま家へ向かっていると、突然背後からチャリンコギャング集団がやって来た。彼らは目の前に立ち塞がり、いきなりマシンガンを撃ち放ってきた。胸を撃たれた瞬間にその銃がBB弾を使った偽物銃というのもすぐにわかった。がしかし・・・ここからが意味不明だ。なぜかrunnyはBB弾だったことに不本意さすら感じていた。その事実に腹立たしくなり、撃った相手をわしづかみにして今度は何だ。。。ボクシングごっこかよ。。。相手のパンチは一つもヒットしない。でもrunnyも一度も手を出さなかった。とここでまた変な夢を見ているというのに気付いた。すぐに目が覚めて、洗面所へ行き顔を洗いながら独り言、「なんなんだよ・・・」。夢って本当に不思議だ。

そんな今日はホームステイ先で料理を担当する。キッズ達の元気な笑顔を見るとなんだかホッとする。あれ？病んでんのか、俺 笑

I had strange dream this morning again. I've been having nightmare recently. In this dream, I met my friends and also non-existent friends(never knew in real) while I was biking in my hometown. After I left them, I was heading to my home and bike-gang (people dress like gang riding bike) passed me. They just blocked my way and suddenly this guy started shooting me with a machine gun. As soon as I was shot in my chest, I realized the gun was fake because it was BB bullet. BUT this is where the non-make-any-sense part begins. Because I felt that it was even against my will. I don't know why but I was disappointed and I kinda pissed off that it wasn't a real gun. So I grabbed him and now what?...boxing time begins....This guy couldn't get any punch on me. But I never throw any punch, either. This is when I realized that I was having a strange dream again. Then I woke up and washed my face in the bathroom and talked to thin air '' what the hell ''... Yeah dream is always strange, isn't it?

So today I will be a chef at my host family. I feel relieved when I see their kids' smile. hur? Am I really ok LOL
 

Sweets addiction 甘いの欲しい

いつからだろう。夜になるとチョコとかケーキとか無性に食べたくなる。昔から甘いの好きだったけど最近ひどい。もし今日本にいたら間違いなくコンビニ行ってるだろうな。でもさっきNutellaをスプーン1杯堪能した。まだ欲しいけどやめておこう。

Since when? I just get intense cravings for sweets like chocolate or cake at night . I know I have always been sweets lover but even more recently. If I was in Japan now, I would definitely gone to convenience store. But don't worry, I just had spoonful of Nutella. I still want more but I'd better not.
 

People who I should love more もっとわかれよ、俺

この数ヶ月で色々あって、色々考えたりしてたらいつの間にか色んな人にお世話になってた。人間なら誰にでもありがとうという気持ちが芽生えるものだと思う。ありがとうという気持ちを言葉で伝えることってできるのかなぁ？いや、普通にできるだろうが 笑 えっと、、、どうやってやんだっけ？

とまぁ、皆さんは今までそんな状況に陥ったことなかったですか？意味わからないって？ちょっと難しいか 笑

In the past a few months, a lot of things have happened and I've spent time to think.  In the process, I noticed that I've met many people who I really should '' THANK YOU '' only in the past a few months. I know we all have appreciation in our mind when we need to. So how can I really tell people my true-appreciation? I think i's easy to do, isn't it? But wait...how do I do it...?

Have you ever gotten yourself into this kind of situation? You don't really get what I'm trying to say, do you? Maybe it's just me lol
 
 
   

I respect all moms in the world お母さんしてる人

アメリカではとある家族の家に招き入れていただいて約1ヶ月が経った。4人家族の家でたまに夕食を作ってあげたりしてる。なので自分も含めて5人分の料理をしないといけないわけ。日本でも料理はするけど、5人分の料理とかあまりしたことがないのね。日本でもだいたい2人分の料理しかしたことがない。5人分ともなればメニューによっては時間もかかるし、超大変な仕事になり得るって事に今更気付いた。しかも毎日こなしてる人もいるわけで。ママの仕事って大変なんだなーってすごく感じた日だった。リスペクトします。

So I've been staying in someone's house in US for a month by now. I sometimes cook dinner for them. They are a family of four. So I have to prepare for 5 people (including me). I do cook myself when I'm in Japan, but not for 5 people. I usually cook for serving 2. What I always realize every time I cook for this lovely family is that it's not that easy for me to prepare for 5 people. It is different. It can be super difficult to prepare depending on what you cook for 4, 5, 6,.... people. But still some housewives do that every day. Well I just thought I had to give all housewives  credit for their hard-work. Respect.

 

Cilantro and cilantro パクチー

ここアメリカに来てレストランで食事をするとほとんどの料理にパクチー（コリアンダー）が飾られてくる。パクチーはちょっとクセがあるから最初は駄目な人が多いと思う。日本でも浸透はしてきてるけどアメリカほどここまで使われてないと思った。・・・今日はそんな1日だった。

Whenever I go to restaurant since I came to US, I almost always see cilantro on the dish. Cilantro has a little specific scent or flavor (to me). So I think not many people like it first they try. It's getting popular in Japan but not as much as here in US.... This is what I felt today.

　　　　　　　　　　

One more month

アメリカに来て1ヶ月が過ぎた。来てすぐにずっこけて二進も三進もブルドッグ状態に陥いり正直途方に暮れた。そんな状態でもできることやっておかないといつも見てくれてる視聴者の皆や、機会を与えてくれたTastemadeを裏切ることになってしまう。だから今はこの地でできることをできる限りやっておきたいのね。でも色々と苦しくなる時があるから上手くバランスをとりながら前に進むのが難しかったりする。この苦境を切り抜けたら良い事もあると信じてあげる事が自分にとって一番の「渇」になるのかな。後もう1ヶ月、がんばってなハゲ 笑


It's been a month since I came to the states. But I stuck in the mud as soon as I came. I was actually quite at a loss what to do. But even though I was in that kind of situation, I knew I still had something to do. I didn't want to disappoint my true viewers, and Tastemade that has actually given me this opportunity. So I've been trying to do what I can do as much as I can. But it's not always easy to proceed without keep the balance. I just need to believe that something good will happen after this rough times. Maybe it's the only one thing that cheers me up. One more month to go. Good Luck runny lol